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For a long time sexually I would not picture myself, I would have fantasies about two guys, or sometimes a woman and a man. Recently it's been mostly two guys again (I would say since the beginning of puberty it was probably 70% of the time two men.) But anyway more recently I would occasionally picture myself in short daydreams, sometimes half conciously like ideas just swimming into my head. When this happens often I picture myself with a penis.
Sorry if this next part is too graphic just kind of signed up and went straight into posting this without feeling this place out too much.
Something I noticed while reading about many crossdreamers including ftm ones is that a lot of ftm seem to fantasise about having sex with women as a man. Personally I very rarely think about having sex with a woman but instead with a guy I find attractive - I'm mostly attracted to guys who look fairly androgynous and feminine. I like long hair a lot, slim bodies, guys who crossdress, guys who wear makeup, but sometimes less androgynous guys too (though the long hair thing is a constant preference.) But because I'm mostly attracted to men I will fantasise about myself having sex with men, if I'm involved in the fantasy. (I can be attracted to women, perhaps partly because of my appreciation of femininity, but it's more incidental and less intense because I like the male body a lot and that balance of traits I suppose.) Very rarely I fantasise about having sex with them while they have a vagina, but they always have a penis as well during such fantasies (so like physically both I suppose,) but I would say that's rare and usually I have fantasies about things like being given a blowjob (most common fantasy,) or having anal sex with them etc.
So I guess I'm wondering how common this is, since I feel like most ftm crossdreamers seem to fantasise about having sex with women, also curious about the sexualities of ftm, like if there are statistics and stuff. It just seems so rare to come across female assigned at birth people who have these fantasy's (whatever their gender identity.) It's very difficult to find information to be honest.