There is this myth that on the female to male side of transgender, there are no crossdreamers, there are no trans men who want to be gay men in the same way there a trans women who are attracted to women.
This is pure nonsense. The founder of the American FTM movement called himself a transvestite at first, and yes, he was a gay man.
He was also a crossdreamer. He once wrote:
"I dream of being a man since I can remember. I always felt aroused by the thought of me having a male body. I always wanted to have a penis. I always considered men are lucky for having that powerful and strong body, that ability to penetrate (with the amazing pleasure it implies) and be dominant."
That is definitely crossdreaming!
Zagria reports that Sullivan wrote to Ray Blanchard telling him about the existence of people like him. It didn't help. According to Blanchard and his friends, there are no "autoandrophiliacs". Blanchard perfectly well know that acknowledging Sullivan would make his whole sexist autogynephilia theory implode.
This short video gives you a quick glance into Sullivan's life and his struggles.
According to Rhys Ernst the video was commissioned by Visual AIDS as part of “Alternate Endings,” a video program launching December 1, 2014, to celebrate the twenty-fifth anniversary of Day With(out) Art—a national day of action and mourning in response to the AIDS crisis.
See also my blogpost On Lou Sullivan and what female to male crossdreamers mean for our understanding of transgender