I think a lot of what they are seeing as 'autism' is just the consequences of their being gender variant, but either not knowing, or knowing and then trying to hide it, or knowing and then adapting their personality accordingly, and then subsequently mostly forgetting and suppressing it, as they try to identify with what they see as more 'positive' role models in their local environment..
Taken from here
Gynephilic MtFs are profoundly ambivalent in their sexuality. They are more masculine than androphilic MtFs and more feminine than normal men, yet they are not fuzzily intermediate either. Their feminine aspect is intense, and their masculine aspects may be equally so, and the two mutually irreconcilable. Their public personality must be built around one or the other of these. In transition mode, they may madden psychologists by marking down the views of both their traditional male and their newly liberated female on the same survey; but it would be less than candid of them to do otherwise, for both attitudes are perfectly real depending on which sex they conceive themselves to be.Unlike their androphilic sisters, gynephilic MtFs can usually pass as somewhat believable males. This does not mean that they are "unremarkably masculine", though an imperceptive observer might suppose so. It just means that they can pass, and usually make an effort to do so. Any discussion of their behavior prior to transition needs to take account of the enormity of the social stigma that falls upon any blatantly effeminate male. The androphilic MtFs take their hit up front. They can't pass, and have little interest in trying. So they grow up openly girlish, at the very bottom of the social pecking order. The gynephilic MtFs meet rebuke for girlish behavior, and learn to suppress the behavior. They find acceptance and reasonable respect in their society contingent upon not showing any obviously feminine habits. In childhood, when their libido is low, they buy into their expected role and identify as boys. They are never jocks or studs, and they are painfully conscious of feminine weakness ever lying just below their cultivated surface. Since masculinity doesn't come naturally to them, they never become alpha males. But they find they can achieve status through the route of pursuing arcane specialties, so as to become the class brain or artist or clown or whatever. Since femininity is dangerous to their tenuous social standing, they may take care never to pursue traditionally female activities. Instead of playing with dolls, which would be an obvious giveaway, they may put together models instead, which is perhaps the nearest thing to dolls that boys are allowed to fuss with.Puberty is a bit of a nightmare for gynephilic MtFs. They find themselves inundated with female sexual feelings that they dare not let anyone discover. At the same time, their bodies are changing in ways they do not like. They are attracted to girls, yet have no idea of how to relate to them as boys. Bullying by their peers reaches a peak, and the bullies are rapidly attaining the formidible size and strength of adult men. Now if ever they must not show female weakness, yet their female sex fantasies are overpowering. They indulge these in private if possible, and seek abnormal amounts of privacy. Yet in public they remain resolutely male, and desperately seek ways to validate that maleness.
So, an outside observer, looking at one of these 'boys' at age 12 or so, won't see person as they were at 5 or 6, possibly role playing in the kitchen or looking after dolls, depending on their particular circumstances. They'll see someone who has already had years of learning experiences and positive and negative behavioural reinforcement, and may not even remember how they behaved when they were half their age, as now their main interest is talking about Pokemon or Sonic The Hedgehog
, or maybe in my slightly earlier generation, building things with Lego Technic, or writing computer games in BASIC on BBCs and Spectrums, activities which were not socially coded as 'effeminate', but were hardly going out playing sports, building forts, or even considering chasing girls.
They are looking to measure behaviour, which I guess is all they think they can go on, not getting into the digit-ratio/phrenology stuff (which for some reason most still consider either pseudoscience or at very least socially taboo (because you know, eugenics/inequality take your pick..)). But if they only look at behaviour, they are not understanding the thought process. You can selectively condition people in and out of lots of different external behaviours, but you can't change the thought process, or 'brain-loop' they run, because that's essentially set by the neural hardware / hormonal hemispheric lateralisation.
So, that, was basically a girl in a boys body, but maybe at that stage he actually didn't know it, or at least didn't think of it like that.At that age I wouldn't have said that I was a girl, I probably wouldn't have said that I wanted to be one either, I probably would have said that I didn't mind acting like one, in fact I really enjoyed many things that were coded as feminine, but body wise it just wasn't a pressing concern to me. I did often wonder why I could never seem to make any friends though.
But no one around him understood anything like that, or cared enough to find out, because he had 'autism', they just left him in a room with lots of toys and computer games, till a few years later they had something more like this on their hands..
Which is somehow seen as a big surprise, and is to many a 'sick freak', and is something no one really knows exactly what to do with.
Hmm, Sonichu is that you? ;-) I thought that was supposed to be Baphomet..
I really hope it doesn't turn out that our poor Chris-Chan was supposed to be the antichrist but he got diagnosed with autism instead and just stayed at home..
To an outside observer I'm kind of afraid that I may appear to fall into that kind of a category too, but I like to think that I'm a bit 'bigger on the inside'.
Half of me is rather like this..
and the other half like this.. (Like I literally have much more of the cheekbone prominence thing on one side of my face than the other..)
The social/communication difficulties that make up 'autism' are basically incompatible brain-loops meeting up and not syncing. To another 'neurotypical' who processes most things subconciously, if it looks like a male, it's also suppose to think like a male, and if it doesn't think like a male it's disabled, or at least has a personality disorder.
But that's the 'essential difference', for the 'autogynephilic' male the 'brain-loop' process isn't so much 'I really want to go out and fuck them, I want gaggle of hot girls on my arm', it's 'I want them to love me.., I don't want to hurt/disappoint anyone, I want a life of comfort and opulence, I want easy access to the best 'seed', and I want to produce the best offspring', which actually weights the basic psychological 'goal-system' in entirely the opposite direction than most people expect.
For the normal male, the process of childhood socialisation is designed to suppress the 'rough edges' of the normal male process. Instead of waving your dick around you have to dress nicely, instead of beating up other people and taking their stuff you have to learn a skill and get a job to show your status, and instead of saying 'me Tarzan, you Jane', you have to learn 'game' to chat up the birds. For the normal female the process is the opposite, instead of running around naked you have to cover up but still look attractive, instead of being really slutty you have to be coy or you lose precious reputation status points, and instead of burning though other people's resources to build your dream house and get all those handbags and gladrags, you have to restrict your aqusitive impulses to what you can realistically afford, (or spend what you do have on your appearance/behaviour so that you can potentially attract a mate with more resources).
For those with 'autism spectrum disorder', the process is basically inverted. No one ever needed to condition me out of waving my dick around or beating someone else up, I just wasn't going to do that anyway. They did fairly strongly condition me out of dressing up too slutty, and drawing too much attention to myself, but no one really thought to strongly condition me out of just staying home, reading lots of books and playing with my toys and games, learning lots of neat tricks, and basically using up other people's resources until I was well into my twenties..If you can successfully create an environment to capture every single one of those essential dynamics, and make it seem like it's the 'coolest place ever' to work, particularly if the participants you capture within the process are not very self-aware.. then you find you can make the really really big bucks.. and very quickly too.
Well, we can't seem to get them to collectively work on creating actual babies just yet, but they sure do love playing with and continually improving on the next best thing..
Oh yeah, and that Keith Vaz, may never have found himself in a position where he had to sell his
body for sex, but sure didn't mind being on the other side of the transaction
God you know, compared to how these so-called 'right honourable
' people actually carry on behind closed doors, I'm basically a terrible prude.
I don't even want to actually behave like that, even in private, because I want to maintain a relatively clear conscience, or if not that exactly, at least because "if you have nothing to hide you have nothing to fear". I actually think paying people for sex is 'wrong', not just because I'm a miser, but because it's supposed to be 'special', and if it has to be paid for then it isn't 'real'. (Hmm, on the other hand, I don't actually think I'd mind someone paying me all that much, moah easy moulah... but at this point it seems rather unlikely to happen.)