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Apr 17 16 5:00 AM

Veronica, it's comes in many ways. Some-times it is like this. Some-times it is just like depression, some-time crazy feelings, fear to became insane, some-times you look in your bottomless painted eyes in mirror and feel like some-thing scarring rules you. And some-times it is very masked, and difficult to recognize, that it is dysphoria. That bad sense has a lot of masks

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Apr 22 16 1:59 PM

Yes Eva, it can be that way!

JustEva wrote:
Veronica, it's comes in many ways. Some-times it is like this. Some-times it is just like depression, some-time crazy feelings, fear to became insane, some-times you look in your bottomless painted eyes in mirror and feel like some-thing scarring rules you. And some-times it is very masked, and difficult to recognize, that it is dysphoria. That bad sense has a lot of masks

But it is not bad. It is just healing. Becoming the whole person that I am, not the shadow of one that I was. So, sometimes, I SCREAM, and then I am better! :) ANd then I have friends like you that inspire me and comfort me and get me back on track. A lot of time, the screaming is not about me, nor for me. It's just the only reaction to some of the very unenlightened, hard hearted and hating people of this world. Screaming is better than pounding them into the ground like a tent stake. I am evolving. The new me can control my Demon rage a lot better than the old me could. AS a matter of fact, It just kind of purrs like a kitten these days! :)  Hugs Babe
Veronica

My own suspicion is that the universe is not only queerer than we suppose, but queerer than we *can* suppose. J.B.S. Haldane

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Apr 24 16 5:48 AM

Yes it does

Well I have looked into that mirror looking into my eyes and crying hard saying I should have been born a girl. Trouble is the other night my wife said that she does yet troubled because I am more girly than she is sometimes ,that just makes it worst. All I want to do is screem I am a boy surely or that's what I am supposed to be. Any way just got to keep going to keep sane.

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Apr 24 16 7:10 AM

Veronica. It has a lot of sence:) Nut my way not scream but crying. After good crying i feel me better, some-times to much better:) And yes good people, good friends! On of the best medications:) Converation here with you and other really good persons here, in chat, in private messages. All this makes my life better.:)
My arms are always ready for hugs:)

fyonab13, yes it's true. Some-time same way. And my wife also suggest same way.
Also some-times i feel bad when in centre of big city on the streets see a lot of beauty woman, fell jelaousy for their good skin, hair, and ability to but clothes, cosmetics without troubles. But i'm just like cinderella, who has short time for make me girl in crosdressing, but than again and again my coach became pumpkin.

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Apr 24 16 10:36 PM

Right now I am having a low point in my crossdreaming but when it is really strong like it was this time last year it is more like this:

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This is also why I don't crossdress.

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Apr 24 16 10:46 PM

Lost, that is unfortunately so true. :(

That's why I don't dress alone -- I need to be made up by someone else. Unfortunately, that's not an option right now. And the dysphoria is so bad right now it makes me want to scream and cry.

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Apr 24 16 11:28 PM

Sofie wrote:
Lost, that is unfortunately so true. :(

That's why I don't dress alone -- I need to be made up by someone else. Unfortunately, that's not an option right now. And the dysphoria is so bad right now it makes me want to scream and cry.

Homura_Hugs_Madoka_ep_11
I know that feeling and I want you to know I feel for and I am here for you!  

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Apr 24 16 11:33 PM

jackmolay wrote:
Do you know who made this comic?

Yes.  Originally she went by the TGArist on Deviant art.  But, she decided to delete that account and all the work there in, though she did tell everyone to save any works of hers they liked.  This was one of the ones I saved.

Her current works can be found here:

http://tresenellaart.deviantart.com/gallery/?offset=24

And her comic about being a transwoman can be found here:

http://www.transchizophrenic.com/
http://transchizophrenic.deviantart.com/

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Apr 24 16 11:56 PM

Sofie wrote:
Thank you Lost! Or do you prefer Vaydra?

Even a virtual hug makes me feel so much better. I'm even tearing up a bit.
Hugs are the best!

Since this is crossdream life where I reveal the part of myself I wouldn't dare reveal to anyone else, Vaydra is probably the most appropriate.  But, honestly, both names are fine and I have no preference.  

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Apr 25 16 3:29 PM

Vaydra, I love that comic. Thanks for sharing it! Although I am the opposite. If I am not able to dress, mine flares up. For me, dressing is the relief. Its interesting how we all have our own ways of dealing with it.

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Apr 25 16 4:30 PM

Vaydra and all,

I really love those illustrations, too. I feel so touched by all of them. For me, dressing is both a relief and kind of a bummer since, after all, I end up to some extent like the girl in Vaydra's comic. I love to shop online, too. There are so many pretty clothes to consider. I'm sure it would be fun to do it in real stores.

I love receiving a new box from Amazon. And their return policy is fantastic and so easy to deal with. Last weekend I returned a purple dress that should have fit but was slightly too small. And in the end I wasn't that happy with the style.

I would also like to echo what others here are saying: that communicating among us here helps.  One way it helps me is that my feelings are confirmed.  Sometimes I feel that I must be nuts but when I read how so many here feel the same way I realize that I am not alone and despite what you would likely think and see walking past me on the street, I am transgender.  

Emma

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Apr 26 16 7:15 AM

Really nice comics! thanks, Vaydra!

Vaydra, Cindy, Sofie i can say, that all your feelings about crossdressing also part of my expirience. This comics same with my impression, when i some-times open the box with new stuff...And 3 years ago i completley avoid to see me in the mirror, when was crosdressed. Only when i accept myself and also start practice in make up i really start get satisfaction from it. Some-times my dysphoria so strong, i'm just wear my favorite long skirt and try relax and don't think about i'm look good or not. Some-times i spend a lot of time for became my look better and finaly understand that result is disgusting...But some-times it's work well...
Sophie said that don't like do it alone for some reasons. I can say same for erotic crossdressing. It is some painful. If you make good erotic image, feel excitation...and fall to the emptiness and depression, because you alone...nobody don't see you and don't want you in that, you just feel loneliness deeper...













 Ladies, i wish for all of us, to cope with our pain!
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Apr 26 16 11:32 AM

Love the comic illustration it reminds me so much of me, only the sad parts are when I have to stop crossdressing due to family life. The mirror is my friend and my enemy it's taken me nearly 40 years to see myself in full vision without bluring my body and face, confidence of who I am has helped as well as sharing my pain.

Hugs Fyona

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